I never will...

until the day i die - story of the year

2006-06-03T09:54:00.000+08:00

WASSAPP! OMG! its been so long since ive updated!! lol.. lemme see what has happened.. nothing much really..just work.. home.. baking... and people! I HAVE A DIGITAL CAMERA NOW!! whoo!! its an olympus 720w one..

and look!! donuts!! yum yum!! lol.. however i only got to eat one.. the others got eaten by ants -.-

but!! i still got some fun with the smiley ones!! muahahahahahah.. i love my new cam so much!!
its shockproof.. AND waterproof!! whooot!!

cool aye cool??? hahahha thats my sis.. with a smiley donut face XD

oh you guys have to check this out too... my maid made some homemade syrup with sugar, water, rose essence and colouring.. then this is what happened...

crystallisation!!! yes yes!! it was sooo freaking cool!!

lol

XD now i miss my camera cos my mum brought it to the orphanage.. lol... oh wells

see you guys soon kay? i miss kid and nad =( they're at UK now... =(

history by funeral for a friend

2006-05-15T18:25:00.000+08:00

for the record:

no im not mad at nad or kid.. ok? im not mad at you guys...

but however i am mad at

belinda chot and SOG(with the excepttion of khad cos i never get mad at her)

why? for blowing me off 15 mins after the time we're supposed to meet..

ok now.. thats it.. next time i go to singapore i'd put my hostel friends on top of SOG.. that means i wouldnt cancel a hostel friend outing to go out with u guys ok?

you guys will only be my LAST LAST LAST LAST priority

but dont worry maybe ill get over it..

after all the only peopel who hate forever are girls and gays =D

and im sorry for not turning up to GEMA (kid ill pay you back dont worry)

i heard it effing sucked anyway

i was missing Jared too much... and i know none of you understands this...

and Hanging out with mal and seeing her family made me feel much better at the end of the day

I MISS YOUR FAMILY LA MAL!!!

anyway does anyone think im addicted to the internet? cos i kinda think i am o.o... or is it just cos jared on the net XD

oh well its not like i have alife other than this other dimension anyway lol!

love song for a love song - Parking lot Pimp

2006-05-15T07:55:00.000+08:00

this song is prety good yah... why havent i been listening to it in a while

2006-05-13T18:19:00.000+08:00

i miss you jared. why arent you on now?

where'd you go - Fort Minor

2006-05-09T07:20:00.000+08:00

ok this is prolly the 17th time im trying to write a blog post but i always seem to lose my mood to blog orrr... forgot what to blog about in the 3rd line.. and saved the post as a draft and never got back to it!!! lol.. IM NOT LAZY TO BLOG I JUST CANT BLOG ANYMORE!!

plus friendster is really effing up on me.. now i cant upload my pictures AND accept my testimonials... LIKE SUDDENLY SO MANY PEOPLE ARE GIVNG ME TESTIMONIALS OKAY!! urgh... hehehe

anyway! last weekends were FAB!! so MUCH SHOPPING!! AND NOWW im super super broke.. hahaha.. so let me think what i bought... i bought two scarves from topshop (THEY ARE HAVING A HUGE SALE!!!), another tie from topshop, a t shirt from extreme(i think thats the name of the store.. aka. nad's fave store in malaysia), undies from topshop, brazil t shirt.. new curtain, gutiar picks, yeah u get the drift...

but thats only from last weekend!!

MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHA!!

this weekend was funnier... remember the black top shop dress ive been wanting since... nad's kl trip?? this one???----> YES!!! hahhaha pretty funny story.. since the day i saw it.. i kept dreaming about buying it XD.. then i decided " AHHHH!! I NEED TO BORROW MONEY" so i did.. and GOT IT! hahaha.. but as always mid valley is ALWAYSSSS jammed with traffic.. so my mum wanted to drive home i was... "NOO!! NOO!! IM SO CLOSE TO IT!! NOOO!! THERE WAS ONLY TWO PIECES LEFT NOOO!!!" so my mum dropped me off on the road outside XD and i walked and hsopped on my own! man.. actually i kinda miss those times... you know... shopping alone blah blah.. hahah.. so now im happy! happy happy! happy as a bee cos i got that dress... lol.. might be wearing it for the grease musical soon... WHOO!

anyway... then yesterday i switched mny mums bed and put it in my room and then put my mums bed in mine.. cos my old bed.. was so kampong! hahaah it was an ugly silver and gold colour.. now its black and woodish! YEAYYY!! andd.. i got a new rug too!! lol

aiight i guess thats it.. besides the fact that ill be in singapore ffrom thurs night to sunday morning!! seee you guys real soon!!

shah alam mosque

IM GONNA MISS JARED LIKE HOW I MISS.... HOTCAKES! ONLY ALOT MORE!

konstatine- Something Corporate

2006-04-23T07:05:00.000+08:00

lol.. its been quite a while since i blogged.. gosh cos my lifes been boring and mundane.. and u guys KNOW i hate it that way...

again i just sit here while all the other bloggers (the new poly ones) all blog about orientation.. later ill be the tercampak one writing about orientation in july.. -.-' joy..

anywayyyy im really starting to miss singapore... like tooo much.. and last year i was missing my home. i can never be happy with where i am yah... u noe what? maybe id be happy with MY HOME IN SINGAPORE.. yeah

but yesterday sumthign really freaky happened. i waslooking out my house balcony then suddenly the view was the view from my hostel window.. o.o... it was really like i was in a dream the view just snapped... and then i felt really sad cos i miss the times i hung out in my room chatting on the net ;P, and STUDYING or just lazying around waiting to SPRING into position for the spot check by the teacehr mentors to see if you're studying XD

i miss jie yi too... i lost all contact with her and even worse now i changed my handphone number =(

heartbreak

2006-04-11T07:52:00.000+08:00

how can you say you love someone then behind thier back go and hook up with another? be it a guy or a gurl... or a person of the same gender? how could you do that to someone you love?

if you do that that obviously you dont love whoever u say you do dont you?

why must he do this to me?

quick jumbled update!

2006-03-27T15:40:00.000+08:00

whoo!! im back in malaysia already people! hows malaysia you ask?

boring.. uneventful.. lazy.. flabby.. yeah you get the idea

anyway! yes... throughout my whole time in singapore.. surprisingly.. i got down TO SERIOUS shopping only on the last day and that was also "express shopping" cos me and nad just skimmed through all the stuff and i was really running late.. but in the end i bought 3 t shirts and 3 new cds...

yes.. 3 cds... man! i wanted to go there to only buy one..but i bought three... the all american rejects is highly recommended by me.. EVERY ONE SHOULD HAVE IT!! serious im really stuck on the song.. called straight jacket feeling and dance inside.. brilliant..

and.. i bought fall out boy and the used's the used album.. the old one... both of them are reccomended by me too.. lol... just not as much as All american rejects one...

well.. on friday was pretty.. wierd... stayed up till the end of the day/night and yet i felt i was freaking short... yeah i loved the sunflower khad bought for me.. nad did u buy it for me too? lol..
as you can see later... i went camera whoring with it in the car on sunday...oh and jared graduated from ROTC on friday!! whooo!!! congrats baby!!!

moving on... on sat.. tkgs placed 2nd on the interunit biannual Campcraft competition!!! good job juniors!! IM SOO PROUD OF YOU!!!!! whoooo!!!! nanyang was a really tuff competitor tho.. so its fine.. we won in our own special way ^-^ by being really cool!! serious did u look at how the nanyang girls clipped up thier hair lol!! can die sia!! hehe

moving further on... sunday... i met up with chot and ber for breakfast at macs and we talked.. then... i left for johor.. where my sis met up with her bf.. AWWWW lol.. took LOTSAAA PICTURESSS!! ALOT... lol...ill just put up one really nice one im currently really admiring =D yes its the only one in this entry... the others u can see in due course okay? or on msn..

love you people!!

100th post.. and sorry for not updating =P

2006-03-21T07:54:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello!!! this is the 100th post!! cool eh? lol.. ok the reason i havent been updating is because i wanted to keep something special for the 100th post(okay la~ also because i was freakin lazy) even now i have no idea what to put for this "100th post" gosh... maybe i shall let you guys have sumthing interesting to read yah like... how easy choices are.. when you dont have to make them...

(bonjour señor!!! )

dont you people realise that choices have to be made with both heart and mind? you have to balance the two.. cos if u purely go with logic.. what if that choice you made wont make you happy? and... if u go purely with... the heart... you might end up unhappy too cos u made the wrong choice?

( no hablo igles!!! )

gosh.. man~ i hate choices.. especially ones that is really hard to make.. its like opening up your fridge and you have leftover chicken and frozen nuggets...

( como esttaasss?)

the logic choice is to finish up the leftover chicken so u wont waste the food cos it wont last the next day.. but then you wouldnt have nice smelling and tasting food aye?

(p.s. jared i love you)

but the MORE HEARTIER and much more satisfying choice is in the nuggets.. of course you dont eat them frozen -.- duh~ you cook them in delicious heart attack in a bottle (you're friendly cooking oil) and savour that sizzling bite full of juicy flavor!!!

so which would you choose?!?!!?

(okay nad.. mal and kid i love you tooo)

now think of it as you choosing sumthing for a total stranger to eat.. you would definitely give the stranger the leftover chicken right??

(sog i love you too!!! why dont we meet anymore =( )

see! choices are easier when they are not yours.. =D

happy 100th post my lovely friends..

( anyone wanna buy me the $43 bucks hawthorne height cd?? anyone???)

"no eating tonight yeah no eating tonight you're on a diet!"

2006-03-07T14:36:00.000+08:00

im watching finding nemo.. AGAIN..=P well i wanted to watch robots but the DVD wouldnt work. animated movies ROCKS!!!! whoo!!! man~ i crave for sumthign really sweet... but i cant have anything =( i hate being sick... urgh.. tonsilitis.. you noe the doctor suggested i remove them.. and that scared the hell outta me.. man!! but i heard after that i can have ALL THE ICE CREAM I WANT!! muahahhahaa!!! whoo! hahah but i also heard its damn hard to eat for a week.. muahaah!!

MJC science....

2006-03-03T15:25:00.000+08:00

i hate having an interesting life...

2006-02-23T12:36:00.000+08:00

i got a single silver bullet i shot right through my heart.. to prove i can survive without you...

at least you have my heart...

ill start talking jibberish

2006-02-23T12:31:00.000+08:00

jabba jabba tunga lakalu.lovey taffa laffy dingding bangbang comokumo jangaloo. killybilly laffataffa dee. hanga banga bunnyhunny yahooluka ding!

that... is how i feel

then again....

2006-02-20T19:33:00.000+08:00

maybe i DO know why im do happy ^-^

why be alone when we could be together baby???

2006-02-20T15:55:00.000+08:00

it was a fab fab fab weekend.. i have no idea whats making this fine monday afternoon totally fine! gosh im not even making any sense now. Well i just woke up this morning with a huge smile on my face. doesnt happen to often you noe... but it did!! well..on sat i got read streaks in my hair! cool right??? lol!!! seriously! its so nice! im so in love with it.. and cos of that it set off some serious vanity issues within me... i began camera crazy and took too may pics! ^-^ other than that nothing too eventful happened...^-^ i mish you people so much! come online more often leh all you schoolholics! pfuit! eh! jason mraz in singapore!!! i wanna gooo!!!

quiz crazy this morning

2006-02-17T10:37:00.000+08:00

You Should Drive a Bentley Azure

You're all flash, and you love to show off to anyone who will watch.
And you're such a high roller, this is just one car of many for you...

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

You Are 80% Weird

You're more than quirky, you're downright strange.
But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader.

How Weird Are You?

You Have a Sanguine Temperament

You are an optimistic person who is easily content.
You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything.
A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better.

You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun.
A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours.
You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much.

At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness.
A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily.
You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you.

What Temperment Are You?

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.
That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!
The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism.

You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.
Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.
You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you?

You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.
Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.
As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

You Should Learn Portuguese

Muito legal! For you, learning a language is all about the lifestyle that comes with it.
And Brazilian beaches, hotties, parties, and soccer matches are just your style.

What Language Should You Learn?

AGAIN! IGNORE THE COINCIDENCE! I SHALL TRY IT ONCE MORE! thats one thing i love about quizzes youre not happy.. do over=P took it 4 times over.. same results... bleh! wheres spanish!?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

oh man~ i hope he doesnt read this o.o.. especially the last part...

Your Stripper Song Is

My Love Is Like ... Wo by Mya

"My love is like...wo
My kiss is like...wo
My touch is like...wo"

You're the full package - and you let everyone know it!

What Song Should You Strip To?

what?!?!?!

Your Kissing Purity Score: 91% Pure

You've hardly ever been kissed

But the kisses you've given are very missed

Kissing Purity Test

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion:

You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.

Neuroticism:

You have medium neuroticism.
You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.
Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.
Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

getting bored yet people?!ill stop here lol! try them people!! and comment at tag board okay?

jingle bell rockingg

2006-02-17T10:17:00.000+08:00

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.
That doesn't mean you don't rock out...
You just rock out with meaning.
For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

IGNORE THE COINCIDENCE TO SPARE YER HEAD! ill try again! -.-
im serious .. 2nd attempt same... ILL TRY AGAIN!

You Are a Punk Rocker!

When it comes to rock, you don't follow any rules
You know that rocking out is all about taking down the man
You've got an incredible stage presence and rock persona
You scare moms, make bad girls (or boys) swoon, and live life on the edge!

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

yeah!! thats the wayyy!!!

there was one questionwhat would your band name be.... "robots ate my grandma" reallyy stuck to me.. i shall name my band that!

messy and incoherent

2006-02-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

yo! hellooo! i know i havent been updating in a LONG LONG WHILE! God knows why.. actually been just EXTREMELY lazy.. oh gosh.. anyway.. lemme update everyhting from lastweek okay...

soo on firday was the big bang! yes! the big banga dayyy!! whooo!!! oh i got a twelve.. kinda dissapointed i got a 2 instead a 1 for bio but im happy with my math! a one and two!! lol!! =D so anyway... yeah... and i applied for jcs and polys yesterday.. oh well.. im not sure if id even go in the end... lets see what happens yah?

so... on sat.. lemme see... me and my sis went to klcc to just... like go out... and we did... lol.. nothing much there la eh... except i went to look for my kindergarten teahcing materials and all that... so then...i think we went back.. yeah nothing much happened there..

sunday went for golf at the green.. GOSH I SUCK;.. and its so darn TIRING! lol..there was this dude with his dad who had the same name as my bro.. so iT was kinda cool no? I LOST MY PINK BALL =( stupid marshall took it b4 i had time to run after it.. I HOPE YOU DIE!!!!

hahah monday was... non eventful as all my other days were... then tuesday was VDAY! omg! i hope u guys had fab gifts.. hahaha i only got one from my mum.. this heart shaped pendant.. and a ring which i REALLY WANTED since.. FOREVER! im finally getting it

amazes me how my mum can buy me all these stuff.. but NEVER an mp3 player -.-' lifes unsolved mysteries =P

till next time... see ya people!

tadika anakku

2006-02-09T13:06:00.000+08:00

1st day/try out day at my new job. as a pre-school english teacher... you can imagine how much they all LAUGHED AT ME!!! -dies- they especially liked the monkey song.. u noe the .. "monkey gorilla chimpanze" song? hehehe.. they like the monkey part.. so my class has seven kids.. 2 girls 5 boys.. man~ they run so fast its like ZOOP ZOOP ZOOP... the first thing i did was teach them sumthing they already noe NUMBERS haahah.. they like the alphabet song o.o they sang it like ten times to irritate me.. oh and they LOVE AKEDEMI FANTASIA! u noe.. mawi and felix and all that!! hahahaha.. i just didnt get the boys name... like all of them were all "arif" sounding... so now i need to plan out what im gona teach them... im gonna treat them like campers! ahahaha that should be easy...

2006-02-06T10:33:00.000+08:00

i have decided... i shalls till support man utd even tho they suck now... only cos.. they provide hot EYE CANDY! whooo!!! ^-^ i love soccer.. can never understand the superbowl thing.. issat bowling then??? super...bowl.. oh gosh i can be such a bimbo hahahaha

masks and shit like that

2006-01-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

man~ i just got off from deviant art.. this really beautiful girl usernamed larafairie.. her pictures are just wow... and its amazing how she can model.. her eyes are very nice too.. anyway.. my point is.. on one particular picture she put stuff about masking your true self and sum emotinal thing like that.. the first reaction ran through my mind - whaaaaaaaaaattt rubbbisshhh- then it made me think... sometimes i write tt sorta emotional shit myself... it really amazes me how my two extremes oppose each other... right now.. i want to be the diva! not the goth punk side of me o.o.. crazy eh? both sides hate each other... crazy.. i have two people inside of me.. which one is the real naz then? SEE!! SEE!! EMOTIONAL SIDE NOW!! SEE!! -.-' i confuse myself...

Mueve las Naglas!!!

2006-01-25T14:21:00.000+08:00

booyah! i watched dirtydancing:havana nights just now b4 i went ot bathe ^-^ DAMN ITS SUCH A COOL MOVIE! oh.. wait its a truly SEXY movie.. im serious..man it makes me wanna dance too.. o.o ahahahah!! you guys who havent watch it you just have to!! hahaha.. its damn nice.. the music in it is fab also.. =D

2006-01-24T16:15:00.000+08:00

So i went from that to that to that to that! hahaha.. see this pic was taken at portdickson.. then i also was inspired by that same song i was talking about "endless road".the road does look endless doesnt it? then i tried to snowify it buy putting a whole chunk of white and snowflakes(i love snowflakes) and then at the end i put a nice princess figure thanks to blackeri from deviantart... and VIOLA! there you have.. endless road photo manipulated!!!

2006-01-23T16:32:00.000+08:00

discovered a really nice song by JJlin today... ask me for the mp3 =Pp thanks to naz... the other one.. =) anyway.. NEW LAYOUT! =) you all would be so thrilled to see your faces there right? aiyoyo!! hahaha..so bored at home sia... =(

The truth is tearing up my heart

I can't recognize this place

The endless road without a stop sign

Can't even find a stranger this time

Why am I still holding back my tears?

In this loneliness there's nothing to fear

Every chord still seems a wonder

How we could be together

Every time I ask if this would be the last

Why am I still talking to myself?

Hoping you will have the keys to my cell

Every song might calm the weather

But it just draws me deeper

How do I get out of this?

I think...I never will

A crystal forming in the eye

Maybe this would be the last

The winding path down my face

Till I begin to taste the bitterness inside

Why am I still holding back my tears?

In this loneliness there's nothing left to fear

Every chord still seems a wonder

How we could be together

Every time I ask if this would be the last

memories

2006-01-22T22:36:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.. i was looking thru all my documents and old school pictures in my file i have... omg... you know i was looking through my kindergaten pictures and i cant help but to wonder what happened to these people? you know.. like where did they go? did they go to express? did they migrate? oh gosh.. what happened to my first crush.. ^-^ he was reluctant to be my bf when i asked him.. MUAHAHAHA!! well.. i do remember about fatimah's ex boyfriend who was my k1 classmate. he cried during a firedrill and thought king kong was coming..o.o... then khadijah whu also became my sec3-4 classmate.. oh gosh.. hope she didnt remember the time i peed on her. which brings me to the fact that i had some... bowel control problems ^-^ sure glad im past that dont ya!? oh did i also tell you my first boyfriend kissed me on the bus and the auntie saw us and went 'shame shame" and i was so embarrased! then everyone made fun of me.. i dont remember his name.. kinda sad eh?? hahaha... and how everyone was crazy over paper!! hahaha if u brought to school a nice pad of nicely shaped paper (i remember i brough the simba form lion king) people would ask u for one..hehehe.. then how there were popular girls in school also.. and how eveyrone wanted to be her friend.. and she would be all snobbish... so if anyone was in kinderland kindergaten marine parade 94-95... studio 21 and i forgot the other studio number.. DO TAG AND DROP ME A LINE! hahahha.. seriously.. i wanna catch up.. ^-^ oh and i remembered everymonday the school served sanwiches(everytime when it came to peanut butter i felt like puking..still do tho!) tuesday... i dunno..porridge?? wednesday.. MAGGI!!! i love it!! thursday.. soo oon? the bee hoon i think.. friday.. i dunno. hahaha.. damn! then i remember having my macdonalds birthday at school! everyone was so happy.. ^-^ everyone gave me nice presents.. hahahaha... i remember this particular paint-me-in colouring book which i loved to BITS! i remember painting this really really really nice parrot.. hahaha..

internet cut off

2006-01-18T15:04:00.000+08:00

yoh! im coming back to singapore for chinese new year people!! book me now! come on! hahahaha!!!!

my internet fgot cut off yesterday
-.- three months never pay bill...-.-

wow

2006-01-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

wow...hahaha.. no im not laffing cos im happy.. im laffing at how ridiculous my whole life seems at this point. do i even have one? so.. wow. you know a few nights ago.. i silently played a scene about my mum getting married to a rich man... me actually could afford that nice empire waistline dress at HUGO at klcc... Wow.... God is really listening i guess.. and i thought the only proposals id even hear within these few years are gonna be the proposals i do for npcc... not for my mum to get married. so much for the selfless acts of her sacrifice getting married to a rich old ugly man who is too fat to sit on the chair he has to sit on his ass... i really... am truly lost for words! i...i really dont know what to say.... wow

2006-01-15T14:44:00.000+08:00

i ask my mum to go klcc with me.. no she says.. NO... now where is she? she is fucking out with her friends.. no im not going out im going hi tea she says. yeah! right... screaming at her was fun. fun beyond reason right? that is what i needed! really! all i want is family. all throughout last year i want my family. now that i got it i realised i HAVE NO FAMILY. yeah.. my family is made up of sum screw shit slut! who is also a two faced bitch. OH GOD KILL ME FOR DOING THIS. just fucking do it okay!? GO ON MUM GO ON... be such a nice shit face in front of everyone else. i SHOULD HAVE SCREAMED AT YOU INFRONT OF YOUR TRUE FAMILY AYE? YOUR FRIENDS. guess what??? I HOPE THEY GET SO SICK OF YOUR FACE THEY DECIDE TO BOYCOTT YOU! yeah... right... call other people sluts and bitches when YOU ARENT EVEN LOOKING AT YOUR FUCKING SHIT SELF!

2006-01-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

what if dreams was a passage in which you speak to yourself what you are really thinking? making it clear to you what you are really going through?

I had a particularly disturbing dream two days ago... to a point i just cant forget it...

Again... familiar people that ive thought alot about came out.. and i think.. its clear...

i missed you.I just did. Maybe cos of a time where i was too busy thinking about myself. that i missed you so totally. And... and i miss you too... Where is the time we spent? has it been all a waste?Do you even care that i feel this way now? i wish i had the courage to tell you this... but i dont...you will think that im this psycho obsessed freak. who could blame me?
te hecho de menos.... te hecho de menos..the hecho mucho de menos...

2006-01-13T10:09:00.000+08:00

firstly.. sorry to mal for cancelling my plans.. first i gave u a totally last minute plan then going back on it last minute again too.. i really wish i didnt have to do that

to the other people i wanted to hang out with... im sorry i cant do it now..

my bags all were packed this morning.. i headed out the door only to forget my passport.. i ran back to the drawer as my heart raced and remembering about a certain pass my mother was making for me. I call my mum.. and yes... it wasnt with me..

The only thing that will be the mos timportant ticket for me to get away from the life i hate wasnt here..that little book was all i needed... but no.. it had to be conveniently unavailable.

Im going to tell it to the world now... i hate my life here.I hate it to the core. I go online almost 24 hours aday cos that is the only way i feel that i have a life. No one respects my feelings here. no they dont. at least when i was living alone i know that if any sadness i felt was self imposed. here. its all created by others. i Wish i could turn back a few months ago.. gosh i should have never left that time of my life. You have no idea how happy i was ot wake up today and told my self "yeah.. im going singapore today. im going to do this that this that. be really happy" to be with the people whowill be a family to me more than my family will ever be. nad.. saf.. kid.. mal.. chot evryone else.. now.. im stuck here. stuck. cant even go anywhere alone. man i hate living in malaysia. i hate it to the core..

I wish that any body reading this who has parents who are planning on getting divorced. stop them at all cost. no matter what u tell yourself that there will not be a side effect. there will be. Anything at all.. it makes you feel that there is no way ANY relatinshp can work.. adn it makes u feel even less confident of yourself to make any relationship work.

I want out from this forever.

what luck!!

2006-01-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

some people have all the luck man... Im watching My super Sweet 16 on MTV (the ultimate cause for materialism) anyway... the girl today was ADOPTED! she has all the luck in the world man! and suddenly from being all poor and all.. she got her own private plane and almost got a bmw convertable only cause she failed her exam or something... but she got it anyway!! what the fffffishhhhhh!!! argh...

2006-01-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

looks like i wont be sleeping.. in a really foul mood and the beleding gum isnt helping either..

2006-01-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

another sweet video... wake me up when september ends!!1 hahaha

2006-01-04T12:27:00.000+08:00

Nazurah's List of the top 3 sweetest video clips

The Click Five - Just the Girl ( jumping around holding hands at a rock concert!!!)
Yellowcard - Only One ( cos of the part where he lost the girl then was like searching for her then they found each other!!!)
Fall Out Boy - Sugar, We're Going Down ( awww.. she loves him even with anthlers!!)

Nazurah's list of top 5 heart-felt video clips

Westlife (i know there arent the original singers) - You Raise Me Up
Avril Lavinge - Knocking on Heaven's Door
Good Charlotte - Hold on
Eminem - When I'm gone
Any other video that features crying children

Nazurah's list of top 3 most annoying Songs of today

Hilary duff - Beat of My Heart (continue singing for little kids please)
Madonna - Hung up ( I NOE HOW THE TELEPHONE RINGS)
Any nelly or 50 cent song -pukanation!!!

Nazurah's List of top 3 songs that are annoying but is catchy

Coldplay - yellow
Lindsay Lohan - Confessions of a broken heart
Black Eyed Peas- My humps ( o.o )

2006-01-03T09:37:00.000+08:00

i feel so left out with everyone making these new years resolutions so... i shall make one!

Nazurah's New Year Resolution made after 1st january for the rest of the year

Don't freak when O level Results come out
Lose Weight. drop to a size 8
Don't fight within my family too much
Read more for enlightenment
Watch more of discovery channel
Be more Alim (im in malaysia tauuu =Pp)
save money for spain trip (i decided ill go after 18.. so i can go alone and go clubbing)
study harder in University
Be more responsible
Be nice to everyone ^-^
Dont get a stead (guys are a waste of time.. ill wait till i go to spain ;P)

Actually now that i think about it... mexican guys are cute too u noe... =Pp maybe ill go to mexico... MUAHAHAHAHHA!!

back in kl

2006-01-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

choo choo! im back in kl.. arrive about 3 yesterday. feel really homish (lazy) today didnt even follow mum to play golf or whatever... but! lemme tell u about my time in singapore this weekend!

so when i arrived... i went out with mal to spotlight and bought small little tiles to make my windchime thingy. and ate at bk while supposedly waiting for my mum to go citylink mall to buy my golf shoes. but in the end my mum didnt meet us but we end up going to citylink anyway...went to hmv to see if they had "plain white T's CD". but it was coming next week.. how nice.. ill get it next time i come.. then we went to body shop and i bought lipgloss... mal tried on some clothes at giordano... then i got thirsty and dranks this OVERLY SOUr BITTER drink.. ew.. haahha.. then went to the house i was tompanging at for the night cos my chai chee house wasnt ready. played with three small kids there... sofia and two of her friends.. the guy was really really gayish.. he wanted to use my lipgloss when i used makeup on the others.. MUAHAHAHA.. he liked to play cooking too! omg! hahaha..

then thenext morn went to kopitiam for breakfast.. then went to my chai chee house to settle everything.. everything was darn dirty and all.. then went arab street to buy crystals.. but went concourse to buy ribbons cos mal said it was really cheap there.. it was.. about 90c per roll!! then my mum drove me round and round arab street so i can pick up my crystal jewelry stuff.. then ought murtabak..and she sent me to kembangan to meet nad there... then met faz and went to bugis. and IT WAS RAINING!! went around bugis street.. i bought 6 pairs of earrings.. nad bought two pairs.. faz bought a jacket,, i bought braclets... then we went to tangling mall.. tand played with foam and got pretty good stuff at the flea market!! whooo!! then we all went home..

i started maknig the crystal jewelry.. to date ive made 3 earrings and 2 necklaces.. gonna take pic of them.. and if anyone is interested... feel free to order! hahaha =Pp

choo coo-ka choo

2005-12-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

things i have to do in singapore

Find PlainWhite T's Cd
Get guitar,mirror and lappy from dad
Get beads from mal
Go spotlight for small mirrors and nice beads(glue gun)
Follow mum to hunt golf shoes

hmmm... pretty much thats it... did i miss anything??? kinda tight dont cha think??? people whu wanna meet me better book quickly!! anyway!!!!

i changed the font colour on my blog people.. please appreciate it.. muahaahhaha!!!!Gosh im starting to really LOVE golf.. i keep wanting to go and hit the balls.. and ive almost hit the 125 mark!!! but its cos i hit in the rain and strong wind i cant get it past that =( when i wanted to go try again today it started raining so heavily!! WHYY!!!?!!? hope it doesnt rain tmr.. i wanna go to the green... =D

2005-12-28T11:10:00.000+08:00

Who are you now

Are you still the same

Oe did you change somehow

What do you do

At this very moment when I think of you

And when I'm looking back

How we were young and stupid

Do you remember that

No matter how I fight it, can't deny it

Just can't let you go

I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

Now look at me

Instead of moving on, not refuse to see

That I keep coming back

yeah, I'm stuck in a moment

That wasn't meant to last

I've tried to fight it, can't deny it

You don't even know that

I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you

No, No...

I wish I could find you

Just like you found me, that I

Would never let you go

King the Kong

2005-12-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

i've just finsihed watching half of king kong.. i was "on-off" watching the first part cos it was extrememly boring.. not worth my money to watch in the movies..=D but its okay to watch la..

Some things id like to say to ann (the damsel):

Oh come on! you noe it'll never work out... what kind of relationship do u want to be in? im okay for inter racial relationship.. but interspecies??? okay maybe he gots some really charmingyellow eyes.. big hairy body... but i think in a few days u will have to deal with bad breathe too! where are u gonna get a tooth rbush that big? maybe tis kinda fun right? rolling around in the ice... free rollercoaster where u want it.. but imagine how big your house have to be? and clearly he isnt educated and cant get a good job.. even if he wants to be a movie star.. he gotta keep the temper in control.. so why are u even bothering? go back to the previous dude.. i hear he can play the piano...

2005-12-21T16:11:00.000+08:00

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter,

either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind

all the answers to my questions
I have to find

my boy lollipop

2005-12-20T16:26:00.000+08:00

you people got problem with the black coloured font ah?

ALRIGHT! i will give you colours!

okay people.. i have changed my tagboard.. the part where u type in what u wanna say.. cos i was having troubles with it too.. muahahaha..

omg... sims 2 is so confusing on ps2!! but its better la.. its harder to contorl with a console (mal agrees)

been slacking ah.. so not much happening! any of you feel like taking to me feel free to email!!! hahahaha!!

2005-12-19T14:41:00.000+08:00

hubba bubba

2005-12-19T14:39:00.000+08:00

omg.. its like an omen.. only one was the first song i heard this morning.. ITS BAD I TELL YA!! haahha.. i miss my guitar.. did i tell u people that?

2005-12-19T14:35:00.000+08:00

i miss mike... i miss him so much.. haish.. i feel so empty without him... =( when will my mum just get me another guitar to replace him? hehhe ^-^

aiyoh yoh!!!

2005-12-19T14:00:00.000+08:00

Rules of the game: Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself. At the end, list the names of 5 ppl who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blogs and tell them to read your blog for rules!

#1 I ate Gum for lunch
#2 I havent ate Lunch
#3 I'd like to have chicken for lunch
#4 I most probably will have chicken for lunch
#5 Chicken am having I for lunch

Everyone who read this has to do it.. muahahahaha!

2005-12-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

omg i cannot express how much i miss all my friends in singapore!!! nad and khad... chot and everyone else.. saf... ahh!!! cannot tahan.. miss your crap!! i got off from the phone about two hours ago with nad and kid! ahahha.. cracko ah they both..talking about nad and everything happening..haish.. really happy got the chance to chat with them.. im stukc on the "no no" song!! hahahaha.. such a nice tune la.. its a mat minah song i noe.. but its nice ok!!!

2005-12-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

stuck on lifehouse's hanging by a moment...i love the tune.. also Vertical Horizon's You're a God.. gosh it has nice guitar parts...

Aint feeling too good neither... not used to losing sumone... thought i'd never... promises get broken... so did my heart... guess its time... i never wanted this.. but i knew this would happen...

2005-12-13T22:41:00.000+08:00

hello!! guess what people?! im SIXTEEN!!

yes yes.. the (un)sweet sixteen day was yesterday!! whoohoo!! hahaha.. it was fab! okok.. so first.. i reached malaysia on the tenth right? so... yeah.. in the afternoon i didnt do much tho...i was really tired from the trip and all.. so lemme start with the eleventh!

So.. the 11th.. i woke up at around 9.50 with my mum saying that my golf lesson was at 10!! WHAT THE!! okok.. so i quickly changed and went for the lesson la.. the lesson was fine.. i mean.. it was harder than i tot okay..hahaha... open the club.. arm straight... must twist the feet.. blah blah blah.. also.. cos of this i had to blow off my dad.. going to midvalley.. oh gosh..what a waste i didnt get to shop.. oh well.. so i followed my mum to work... and insyaallah ill get to work there soon too.. hahaha... need to get some money la! okok.. then... after that my dad picked me up from home to petaling street... pretty unproductive but yeah.. got my black tie.. hehehe.. so then we went to planet hollywood for my birthday dinner.. very boring.. nothing to blog about.. hehehe.. then i went home.. took 15 mins to pack then my mum sent me to mal's apartment at KL plaza suites... then the three of them picked me up from seven eleven.. mal, cheryl and shafik.. ok then.. hung out at the apartment.. then at about 12 midnight cheryl came to me and was like "what day issit today ha?" then i told her the TWELTH!! yeay!! im sixteen! then suddenly i saw mal hopping outta the kitchen and shafik holding a piece of cake.. hahah the first thing asked "is there only one piece?" cos i dont want any saboing u see... haha good thing the cake was expensive.. not suitable for cake smashin.but it was so sweet u noe!! hahaha.. so happy! hahah.. then... after that we all hung out and got frustrated over the teevee till about 2.45 then everyone slept...

THEN 12TH!!! (my bdayyyyy)

alright! i woke up at 8 to the sounds of dripping water! hahaha... from the aircon.. okok.. then shafik got into the toilet first and mal used cheryl's toilet.. so i wa the last to bathe.. then we had frien rice... then we walked to times square!!! yeay!! hahaha.. so we took the rides one after another by the time we hit the big turning turning one for the second time everyone was dizzy and felt like puking!! hahaha..even me!! omg!! so we all were in search of food. ate at the chicken rice shop. then.. we went shopping.. i didnt shop much la.. we were killing time b4 our movie.. so in the end i bot a book and seventeen from borders... and then we watcehd narnia!!!! it was nice!! hahaha.. i really like the lion.. and i think that peter is "good looking" not cute not hot just "good looking" his eyes are nice!!! hahahaa... so anyway!! then we walked back to the apartment and had dinner... cheese popiah! hahaha nice u noe! i never ate it b4 but it was nice!! hahah so then we all went to meet my mum at planet hollywood.. u can guess how embarrasing it was!! OMG!!! my mum!! ahh!!! hahahaa... i pity the others to have to put up to her! hahaha.. and at one point i had to stand on a chair and blow the candle from like a meter away.. hahha from this bapok waiter who told EVERYONE its my birthday!!!! oh my mum teased the bapok waiter(who was dancing by himself) with shafik.. haha... oh well.. i could have warned the three of them about my mum b4 that.. haha.. so then i went back home and found two presents on the table!! a necklace from auntie miia and sofia.. and a body shop t shirt from my sister.. yeay!!1 hahaha.. and so.. that was my big 16!! a really good day.. ^-^

2005-12-09T23:48:00.000+08:00

im off to msia in 6 hours.. bon voyage gonna miss u people.. +60126504535 my number! ciao!

2005-12-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

How to make a feenux

Ingredients:

1 part pride

5 parts ambition

3 parts empathy

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little lovability if desired!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2005-12-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

been a really unproductive day really... been slacking all day... except for now.. sumhow got to pen down two songs...the thoughts are long expired to be written down.. im glad i have... it's taken quite a bit from my mind... its interesting to see how writing can destress me... anyway... looking for someone to do ping pong writing with.. you noe.. like... i write a chapter then u do that sorta thing... hmm.. gotta go pen down another song! ciao nites!

2005-12-04T23:28:00.000+08:00

WHOOHOOO!!! lime gig today was EVEN BETTER!! hahahaa.. altho we werent infront(LOTSA TOUCHING HANDS OPPORTUNITY) okok.. so when i came stars dont fall came on.. thier songs are really good.. or maybe its just my energy...okay so... then.. i saaw nad and faz and saihah in the crowd.. went over to them.. they were in front these bunch of small kids... and thier sis keep telling us not to jump and put down our hands cos they cannot see... anyway.. IF YOU CANT SEE DONT BRING SMALL KIDS TO GIGS.. i noe they were there for the anugerah people.. GOSH... at least try to party la... the anu guys will always come out last.. at least they were standing unlike the day b4..okok.. so then.. the beat box people came on... pretty god stuff ah.. but nothing i'd be doing.. so they had this lil beat box competition.. these two girls.. well this chinese one and malay one.. the chinese one was full of bad atiitude u noe.. like those.. "I noe im better than you" humble sorta way which turns out all wrong.. she was like jumping on stage and was giving us the impression she is a real giggly bitchy(there i said it!) person ah... then the malay one was really nice and sporting when she had to and all.. so.. obviously the malay gurl won... so... the chinese gurl was getting off stage then there was this really cute guy at the back and she took the freaking opportunity to talk to him u noe.. when she walked off he was like giving the crowd this " this girl is retarded and im just entertaining her" look.. its not that im jealous.. i feel sad for her for earning a bad name...

so anyway!! THEN... SAW LOSER CAME ON!!! whoott!! hahaha... they were really full of energy.. and at one point of time one of them looked at US!! haahhaa... faz was all screamy melty fangirl ish!! hahaha... they sang a few sogns from pug jelly and a few i dont noe.. so.. yeah... hmmm... im so tired now.. so i wont blog.. toodleseveryone! adios!

2005-12-04T11:08:00.000+08:00

hola! buenos dias everyone!!!! ok yesterday's concert was SOOOOO FUN!! but stupid people were just standing there like a bunch of legless FREAKS! the people in front WERE SITTING DOWN! but heck.. the middle people were the most happening ones of all.. yes.. so i wanna go today since saw loser didnt go yesterday but only if people came along with me tho..nad and nad!!! hehehehe.... so anwyay.... bonafide vintage flavour( dun ask me about thier fancy name spelling ok?) was cool.. sang sum of thier own song and covered/remixed others... i won myself 20 swatch vouchers for being the first to hold up my sock.. NO! ITS NOT THE SOCK ON MY LEG.. its my BABY sock.. for my handphone!!! hehehe.. and b4 that i was like "dan..say sock say sock" hehehehe!!!! WHOOOTS! sooooooo.... hmmmmm.. i guess that was it.. except b4 that... we went to take neo prints!!! YEAY!! the most number of neoprints i took in a week and i wanna take summore!!! whooo!!!

2005-12-03T23:36:00.000+08:00

i dont want to be the one always waiting.. i dont want to be the only one always trying to make us talk. im sick of waiting.sick of this madness.. i knew it wouldnt go far anyway. i always thought of it as short term. but i was starting to spin my own vortex..one i couldnt get out. right now.. its been a month since ive talked to you. and i wonder how is it u can carry on? when im hurting so bad...i hide behind happy faces.. trying to push you out of my mind...im dissapointed i need to remind you of me... whatever little you would reply me with... im not asking much.. im just want to talk to you for a while... i just want you to be there for me to talk to.. share my deepest troubles that im facing now. ones i cant tell others but you.... where did you go sayang? where did you go??

2nd dec

2005-12-03T11:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday i was supposed to go to orchard to follow chot watch harry potter with kid.. BUTT!!! in the end chot said to meet me at causeway point.. i tot she was there with her family to watch the m&ms show la.. but NOOOOOO...kid was also there.. which i found abit wierd but nvm.. then they insisted on going to my house.. when i was dressed so nicely to go to orchard okay!!! so i was not happy and brought them around Causeway point.. ok i admit i was totally clueless! okok.. so then..we took neoprints and walked around..then we headed to my dad's house...

so i brought them and i went in to change when i went out.my bro was opening the door.. THEN THERE THEY WERE! BER SYIKIN AND FA!! omggg!!! then theyn raided my kitchen for God noes how long then they came out with these ultra cute smiley potato things!!so cute!! hahaha okok.. then... they borught out the pasta.. they didnt noe how to make my signature pasta so they made those types you pour out from the bottle kind.. it was still nice tho.. hahahah.. THEN... they brought out our fruit salad.. which no one finished in the end.. but we ate it during SEPET! ahahaha.. i watched it a few million times but some parts i still dont understandcos its too artistic! hahahaa... oh well.. then... we walked to causeway mrt cos i was gonna meet my sister... to go to sofia's play...at etonhouse primary school..

I WILLNOT HIDE THAT IM DISSAPOINTTED THAT THESE INTERNATIONAL KIDS DONT HAVE CUTE GUY SIBLINGS OF ABOUT MY AGE.. humph!!! no eye candy.. only cute lil cute boys to look at.. i would have been pretty happy i i was a pheadophile(?) hehehe the play was really nice and interesting.. hahah SO DARN CUTE AHH.. ESp this surf song they danced too.. the lil 6 yr old kids were in hawaii shirts and dancing and shaking thier butts.. then got guitat solo summore!! OMG I COULD HAVE DIED OUTTA CUTENESS!!! haahahhaa....

guess thats it..for yesterday!! WHOO! it was fun!!!!

2005-11-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

HOLA PEOPLE! como estas?? how do you like my new layout??? nice? i made it all by myself.. credits are on the front page when you enter! so.. imnot sick in the end =D.. today i spent my whole day at home and at causeway point.. i went CP with my bro and went to the arcade..one thind i noticed..young kids are getting meaner by the second.. they hog ALL the games sia!! WTH! haha.. anyway.. i've beeen playing alot of rakion and habbo hotel lately.. o.o.. call me a freak thanks.. hahaha... okok anyway.. then i went to gelare with my bro too.. went round and round causway point...bought habbo credits! hahaha omg.. freak... hmmmm... anyway.... cant wait for my bday in 12 days!! 12 days people!!!! hm... okok.. gtg now.. adios! hasta pronto!! te amo!!

2005-11-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

man... i think im burning up.. feel feverish all of a sudden... its all the things i think about in my head and heart also that might be contributing to it. i wont say what cos it doesnt matter..erm.... and fort minor's new cd ROCKS get it..you can so tell that mike shinoda is on the CD.. its very distinctively his style.. i really like the song "where'd you go?" and "kenji" very meaningful lyrics.. hahaha... I CANT WAIT FOR WHENEVER LP RELEASES A NEW ALBUM! hahaha....=) okok.. i feell really bad now... erm... i guess thats it... ciao!

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"

I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing

You know the place where you used to live,

Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,

Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,

But now, you only stop by every once in a while,

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,

Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,

I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,

You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,

And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',

Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,

For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,

It seems one thing has been true all along,

You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,

I guess I've had it with you and your career,

When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

2005-11-29T00:16:00.000+08:00

hellooooo peopleeee!!! THIS SHALL BE A PICTURE POST.. what is a picture post... a picture post is a post with PICTURES!!! since i am SUPER SUPER LAZY TO CAPTION AND ARRANGE PROPERLY... it is... a collage! of pictures! prom and... random pics..so here goes...

2005-11-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

guess i should update.. right about now... so.... so... ermmm... lemme see... let me update about prom la.. okok.. so in the morning i spent liek 1.5 hours talking on the phone with faz and nad.. we all were very impatient for prom so decided to go to faz's house to hang out b4 prom and we did.. so..nad left earlier to meet hazi.. then.. oh gosh my bloggin modd has flown away... =( WTH.... okok... u guys check out the photo page! ciao!

2005-11-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

HOLA! buenos noches!!! hahaha im so gonna learn spanish after o levels.. YES PEOPLE.. it is AFTER O LEVELS ALREADY.. the fact is still registering in my mind.. cant believe it mann... its over!! omg! three months b4 we get to see what comes out of it.. ok.. what you see here.. on the left is my birthday pressie from my step mum.. its Baby Doll perfume.. byYves Saint Laurent.. she gave me the same thing last year but this year its the limited edition SPARKLING one.. its sooo cute! i love it.. gonna use it for PROM!! yeay!! hahaha... okok... and another perfume im using now is.. Tommy Girl the summer one... its damn nice.. according to Arthi too! ahahaha.. she's smelling me alot that time.. cos its just right for school.. altho there was a time i accidently used too much! gosh... must have been sleepy.... so nothing much is happening.. im moving out of the hostel next week.. and then im moving out of singapore the week after... alot of people were suggesting to me to have abday party b4 i leave.. but i seriously have no mood to plan.. scared i plan plan no one comes.. u noe how people are at parties.. you invite 10 people 3 come.. invite 50.. 20 come... =(.... okok i betta get some sleepp..=) BUENOS NOCHES PEOPLE!! hahaha

2005-10-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey people!! miss me much?!!?! sooo much have happened... haish... even now i feel so lazy to blog about it.. sucks lah! tmr got o level malay.. then THURSDAY IS RAYA!!! yahoo! -gosh that was so tacky- i cant wait for raya! yessaaahhh!!! raya!!!can see my bro and sis! yesssaaaahhh!!! then.. can eat in the afternoon~~ DOUBLE YESSAAHHH then.. got o level the following monday..-.-' gosh thanks! -.-'

whbis moomoo

2005-10-24T17:37:00.000+08:00

took this pic on friday.. it was too cute to just leave it alone... and i ADDED CAPTIONS.. i realise that my bed and bed side is so full of clutter (the clutter is gone now) i didnt caption all the stupid stuff u can find here.. i left abit of it out for you imagination!! hahahaha

last day of school?

2005-10-15T11:07:00.000+08:00

hallo!! loOk new layout! nice nice? well like normal people... girl playing guitars cant stay young forever! so.. here she is again! all grown up and STILL PLAYING THE GUITAR...hehehe.. so yeah comment on the layout.. altho it wont matter to me anyway!

so! yesterday was the last day of school.. gosh.. everyone wasnt DRAMA!! i was the only drama one! don't people understand the significance!!! so i was like "ok.. this is the last time i will sit at this spot..and this one... and this one" then pear would be like "no lah.. we will still come back for o level" SO MUCH FOR BURSTING MY DRAMA BUBBLE! so hahaha.. i continued doing the drama thing again...

then when i got my report book i cried! yes people! i cried out of happiness and the fact that i feel so "loved" BY THE SCHOOL! gosh gosh gosh.. then then when i went back felt so tired so i wanted to take a nap b4 going out for buka lah.. so i did.. then i overslept.. good thing mal smsed me.. if not id be REALLY late... so yeah... then i didnt meet her on the bus oso! cos.. I WAS LATE! didnt prasan she smsed me saying she on the bus already... so yeah.. so i reached there at around... 5.50? we suppose to meet at 5.30.. so when we got there.... we waited for like... 15 mins till saf came.. then i forced saf to buy for me a rose hahaha.. so sweet and romantic kan? so in the end... we met at like.. 6.40??? then we rush rush...its just soo funny when like the ten of us cross the road ah.. hahahaha.. super funny!!! we should record us crossing the road one day!
so then we went to eat.. i ate a total of 4 pratas which of course i shared with nad... it was NICEEEE hahaha... i love prata... so yeah then i also like tompang tompang the other peoples food.. muahahaha... then we cut the cake! it was DAMN NICE... gosh.. okok then we decided to go GEYLANG! i almost tot they werent gonna..=( so.... then mal decided not ot follow us so..nvm.. then we got onto bus no. 2... and.... we TALKED SO MUCH.... so kecoh(spelling?) hahaha and laffed so much and all.. so when we reached geylang... we went ot rh to get my baju raya... so.. then...we went.. jln jln.. then we jln jln... until we decided to plkay sparklers. so we went TKC b4 that of course buying sum sparklers.. then we went TKC to go toilet first.. then we went out.. then... we played play then.. took summore pics.. b4 me going home and they all going macs.... haish.. so tired lah..

2005-10-14T05:17:00.000+08:00

HEY! good early morning!! i just finished sahur.. which isnt much considering i only ate one tuna sandwich... gosh... it was so STOMACH WRENCHING... im so not used to it.. hahahaha... so yeah im up to do ABIT of studying seeing how i wasted one hour just SORTING OUT ALL THE PAPERS!!! hahahaha... gosh im such a messy person!!! okok.. anyway.. i made a new layout again... you people will get to see it.. REAL SOON.. ok? once i have to mood to decode it.. OH YEAH! i bot my prom "top" already gosh! i wanted to wear a coreset right? i kinda got the closest i can to it.. i mean its TIGHT and yeah... you people will see at prom ^-^.. IM NOT SHOWING ANYBODY BEFORE HAND! its not that great anyway.haahaha.. anyway...im so looking forward to buka later... 2/9 BUKA!! yeay!!! hahaha oh yeah... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAD COS I DO NOT CARE ABOUT IT!okok.. gtg now.. study =( see you! happy journeys!

2005-10-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

WASSAP PPL! hahaha im kinda sad people.. (mal: YES PEOPLE) you noe why? cos we will be tkgians for only 2 more days!! YES!! two more days b4 study leave... and then tuesday got biology practical.. then the next week got practcials.. tehn the next next week... got rayer then the week after the next got WRITTEN PAPER! PANIC ppl!! hashaha okok... gtg.. mal wanna leave ready.. ciao!

2005-10-10T12:29:00.000+08:00

gosh... ok people.. you noe..the past few days i was faced with yet another dilemma.. dilemma in which it requires thinking.. and i thought i just had people whu would help make practical decisions.. but CONTRARY TO MY BELIEF~ i do not have anyone to listen to me blabber non stop about whats on my mind. guess there isnt a point in telling people whats on my mind anyway right? cos no one bothers to know whats on my mind.. and to people who are actually reading this... if you dun give a damn.. -miss tee like- you jolly well redirect yourself to another page
the thing is.. i need to talk.. i need to talk and i need to talk... the reason i need to talk is that.. in case something happens.. i want sumone to noe what happened.. i dun want my deprature to be a mystery... you see.. thats why people.. i talk.. and i talk too much right? and i feel disspointed and rejected when people dun wanna hear me talk.. and that gets me upset...

2005-10-10T12:03:00.000+08:00

for people who are stressed like me :ehem ehem.... not to be done of course to be CAUTIONED OF!

Self-injurious behavior, like cutting oneself, is on the rise with adolescents. Below are tips on how to identify the problem and where to find help for treatment.
Self-injurious behavior is defined as deliberate, repetitive, impulsive, non-lethal harming of one's body. Self injury includes: 1) cutting; 2) scratching(mosquitoe how!?!?): 3) picking scabs or interfering with wound healing; (its itchy you noeee) 4) burning; 5) punching self or objects; 6) infecting oneself; 7) inserting objects in body openings;(cant i eat?)8) bruising or breaking bones; 9) some forms of hair pulling,(cat fite!!) as well as other various forms of bodily harm. The behaviors, which pose serious risks, may be symptoms of a mental health problem that can be treated.

Behavior patterns

Many who self-harm use multiple methods. Cutting/scratching arms or legs is the most common practice. Self injurers may attempt to conceal the resultant scarring with clothing, and if discovered, often make excuses as to how an injury happened. The most common excuse is "the cat scratched me." A significant number are also struggling with eating disorders and alcohol or substance abuse problems. An estimated one-half to two-thirds of self injurers have an eating disorder.

Reason for behaviors

Self-injurers commonly report that they feel empty inside, over or under stimulated, unable to express their feelings, lonely, not understood by others and fearful of intimate relationships and adult responsibilities. Self injury is their way to cope with or relieve painful or hard-to-express feelings and is generally not a suicide attempt. But relief is temporary, and a self-destructive cycle often develops without proper treatment.

jeng jeng jeng..my life people... cannot tahan.... haish.. total internal ~~reflection~~ breakdown...=( i feel like im breaking up like those electolytes in electrolysis.. i feel like a piece of my is missing... like after you give one electron away... i want to throw away all these negative feelingssss like excreting it all out.. AHHH!!! what happens when im not moving at fast enuf relative velocity to catch up!! diee!! all my nitrate compounds will be broken down to be reabsorbed by the plants!

2005-10-09T11:35:00.000+08:00

sometimes when you noe sumone means the world to you.do you start to worry that maybe, you aren't the world to them?

after prelim results

2005-10-08T19:51:00.000+08:00

heyhey people! wats up? hope you all did REALLY WELL for prelims.. cos i didnt... yeah... its really not making my recovery from sore throat any easier.. in a state of depression.. but not that depressed.. so the more depressed i am.. the happier i get.. get it? whatever.. anyway.. im no eligible for ANY jc for that matter.. so.. screw it... but my mum was like "no pressure.. just do you best" ALLHAMDULLILAH MY MUM IS MY MUM... im really super lucky to not have her pressure me more... but im more scared of my dad.. i think he will pressure me.. but what the heck... another 6 weeks of toil and studying b4 i can BURNNN MYY TEXTBOOOKSS.... muahahaha..( its supposed to be symbolic i wont burn it.. i will RECYCLE IT!) muahahhaha.... hahaha.. so anyway.. yeah thats my life so far... to this point... im really happy for my bio practical.. thats the only thing im happy about... its super well-done... hahaha... and then...i failed my paper 2 thats why i did quite badly for my bio.. ok.. i got the whole rows of fours ok? thats how badly i did... haish... well.. gtg study now.. ciao!!! ^-^

dear saf, dun be sad ok?? you still have the chance to do better!! yes! you noe whats the diff between you and the hopeless people? YOU HAVE GOT DREAMS! AND U CAN DO IT!!

after prelims

2005-09-26T11:02:00.000+08:00

so people! prelims finish?? HOW? im sorry it took me so long to blog bout my after prelims adventures!!! hahahaha.. i noe u all are waiting patiently for all these blogging.. okok.. lemme start with day one...

me, chot, kid and (chots new friend) nad went to heeren. cos i was treating them spinelli... we bought two cakes and two drinks.. total cost = TEN CENTS! cos i have 20 bucks voucher from my step mum.. hahahaha.. so yeah.. then we sat sat there... then we talk talk.. then we went up tot he annex at heeren.. unfortunately for kid and the rest of us.. kis DOESNT LIKE SHOPPING! muahaha.. so like 80% of the words coming out of kids mouth was " ok dah? dah? ciao ah? dah?" "i'll wait for you people outside" LIKE A GUY SIA!! kid if u gave shopping a chance you will see that it is more theraputic than torture k??? hahaha.... so we walk walk walk around... then we walk walk walk then.. we walk walk walk ah.. then nad got the biggest false alarm of all time!! she touched this shoe which said "pigs lining" then she was super super super freaked out.. btu we found out it was the inside which were made outta pigs lining!!! HAHAHAH... so yeah false alarm... moving on.. then we wanted to walk to far eeast! so we did but we stopped sumwhere b4 tangs and shared a mac students meal and gossiped and talk about old times and friendships and enemies and all that sorta stuff!! hahaha... so anyway... then we decided not to go far east cos it was already 5!!! hahaha.. so yeah from orchard... i went ot mal's house.. cos im going watercolour painting at east coast! hahaha so i went ot mals house then we walked to east coast! then... omg! my painting was so nice! it had bloches of paint of all different colours everywhere! whoots! 1 million bucks people! anyone wanna buy? hahahaha... that was all sarcastic ok? then i went bakc ot her house.. then i went back to hostel...

day two

i woke up at 8 and decided to torture people by smsing and calling them and asking what time are we going out (suppose to go out with mal and nad) so anyway!! then... in the end i went ot mal's house (again) and i hung out at her house till like one.. b4 we decided to go bugis... then we changed out minds and went to suntec.. BUT we changed our mind and went ot far east (for me to continue with the day before failed mission) so yeah.. we went there,.. FAR EAST DOES NOT LIKE MONEY IN MY WALLET.. mann!! i was dried up by the end of the day!! i bought this brown skirt.. and this brown top... then i bought crystal earrings.. then i bought hair clips... then i bought golf gloves for me and my mum ^-^ then.... we went to lj to wait for nad.. then nad came! then... we walked to tanlgin mall.. and passed by germany/medival era/france/scotland whereever lah.. then we passed by this road called SETON CLOSE.. FREKAAYYY!!! hahaha... so then... we reached tangin mall.. then we walk walk waiting for flea market open.. BUT THERE WASNT ANY FLEA MARKET! wrong week.. ITS NOT MY FAULT OK? but its good experience lah ppl! good experience! hhahaha.... then we went to parkway to eat desert!!! hahaha... i bought my super ex thing that only filled half the bowl!!! what the! but nvm.. i made myself happy by eating popiah! hahaha.. theres a video of it too!! hahahah.. super nice!! hahaha... so yeah total expenditure for that fay : 140.75 excluding food! nice~ hahahaha

day three

suppose to be the day i start studying but i decided not too and hung out the whole day at mal's house!! muahahaha (again!!!) did so many stuff... hahaha.. then... i went pp.. to eat cheese fries.. we went to so many floors finding the toilet -.-.. hahaha.. so then.. yeah

today i didnt go to school cos i felt really sick in the morning now is better.. so i better start studying man! hahaha today is chemistry day! CIAO!!! hahhaa

2005-09-21T08:55:00.000+08:00

good morning fellow peeps! hahaha... how's your prelims doing pepal?! nice? good?! MUAHAHAH.. anyway.. i betta clock in this entry b4 i need ta report for my bio prac.. hahaha.. yesterday me nad and mal were talking about the "final" theory thing right? hahaha... like i told u its possible... but the thing is... the guy who wrote it is as old as singapore.. yes.... 40! haha.. and to think i trusted his theory? BUT HEY! everyone tot newton was a psycho.. everyone tot einstein was cuckoo! lets just see wheer this guys theory take him in about 50 eyars shall we? hahaha.. anwyay.. for people whu are interested... here it is!! http://www.thefinaltheory.com/ and... for people whu wish to see the dsicussion at science forums.net... HERE IT IS.. i think u need to log in issit? http://www.scienceforums.net/forums/showthread.php?t=4584.... HAPPYY READING PEOPLE!!! ^-^ wish me luck..

BIO PRELIMS

2005-09-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

yeay yea!!! people!! bio prelims.. iss... o-v-e-r.. i kinda sorta got qutie alot of qns answered.. some i just put crap.. hopefully it was intelligent crap.. tmr is a math.. hopefully its like easy.. but i highly doubt it.. I HAVE TO CRAMM TONIGHT MAN! hahaha.. oh wells.. anyway...i read this other book by jodi picoult again.. called the pact.. a fabulous read if u ask me... its about this teen couple whu were suppose to suicide together. but u see in the end the guy didnt die.. so he was charged with murder... and the thing is... the whole trailw as about truth.. and i totally agree with the writer in the way she talked about truth is an opinion..not fact... yeah then yesterday i went mph.. and bought another of her book.. its called.. "plain truth"... ^-^ and im gonna read it.. AFTER i mugg.. hahaha... so anyway people.. gotta go..see ya bye!!!

2005-09-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

wassap.. firstly.. A BIG HOOHA to KHADIJAH on TURNING sixteen YESTERDAY... ^-^ hoohahoohahooha!! so yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIDDY!!! hahaha.. so instead of getting you a pressie mis khadijah.. my mum got me a present.. people.. its a jlo watch.. and its beautiful!! ill show it to you people... one day... hahaha.. ill wear it for prom definitely! so anyway.. yeah the past three days.. i havent been studying.. been out wit my mum alot.. see i can never study if my mum is around.. so anyway.. yeah did quite alot of shopping...on saturday went to suntec with sis....then.. then... went bakc to have dinner at... my mum's firends house for dinner... chicken rice and char kway... then i went back to hostel..then.. the morning me and my mum... went to my granddads grave long time never go there.. kinda full of shurbs already.. then my mum let me skip my agama class ^-^.. so i think we went......to a warehosue sale at macpherson... more interested in teh levis one but NADHIRAH gave me the address of the other one.. so went to royal sporting house or why pay more warehouse sale.. soooo... i bought a reebok t shirt.. a puma sweater (f1 endorsed)and reebok winbreaker.. then went to a cat show... not very interesting but i bought a car decal and a cute cat bag!!! the cat bag is for charity lah... hahaha thennnn.... we went.. no where else.. hahaha...then.. i went back hostel.... so MONDAY... in the morning i went ot mac to eat breakfast... then... went to tampines to do sum banking.. then went back.. on the mrt saw this REALLY REALLY cute boy.. like 3 years old but he was really chardming and i could tell he would be REALLY hot when he grows up.... hahaha...then my mum brought me to pp... then we walk walk jln jln... then i bought the jlo watch.. WHOOHOOO!!! hahaah then today morning went to MAC THREE TIME!! once with my mum once alone then with kid.. we also celebrated kid today!!! hahaha.... see the neoprint we took.. u can clearly see the stupid one there.. the sweet one and the clumsy one.. oh yeah.. thats the new reebok shirt.. hahaha so yeah.. lazy to blog ready.. BYE PEOPLE!!

emath

2005-09-02T10:39:00.000+08:00

emath prelims was a killer. litterally.. and so was english... it killed me... they expect me to have nine lives or sumthing.. well nine times two lives (nine for prelims and nine for o levels) yeah.. each exam taking away one life of me.. anyways... later is social studies.. studied quite abit for it.. u noe its IMPOSSIBLE to finish studying anything.. u see.. u might not know that u dont know that you missed out sumthing. so its IMPOSSIBLE to finish studying..okay folks.... absolute boyfriend came out on wed!!! yeay! the last installment of the heart wrenching everso sweet manga!! yeay! celebrates.. and wat better way to END my week... by having my mum and sis over in signapore! im so excited and anxious. Too bad cant watch the movie with my mum and sis cos land of the dead is m18... can't wait can;t wait.. alrighty better make a move... gotta be EARLY for social studies -^-^- see you people!! ciao.. good luck for exams!!! 65 more days to the big O...

blame stress for colourful entry...

2005-08-28T09:38:00.000+08:00

Oh dear! The Preliminary Examinations are tomorrow! Can someone tell me how to dramatically improve my narrow vocabulary in one day? -sigh- anyway, yesterday was interesting. I went out the whole day to study i think. Not too sure if i did study much.. but i guess it counts..saw this really cute guy at the AIRPORT! hahaha.. he is super tall and super cute. and i think he's mum is cute... hahaha.. no lah.. im not bisexual.. he's mum was trying to fix his hair but he didnt want.. cos u noe he has that floppy floppy hairstyle(so cute!!) hahaha...nothing else to talk about lah... except im wishing everyone a good good lukc in the exams!! ciao!!!

2005-08-24T10:52:00.000+08:00

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading...
You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.
Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.
But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

2005-08-23T10:37:00.000+08:00

greetings to my marvelous readers. I have not been blogging for the apst few days as i have had nothing to say. At this point of time, I still do not have anything splashy to write about. I sincerely hope that all the candidates for this year's o level examination does excellently well. In fact, deep in my heart, i wished contrary to that. ^-^ alright, i am becoming a dull, boring and gray person from all the heapfulls(?????) of studying i have done! "hahahaha," i laughed. -.-... this is broing.. gotta go people! bye'1

2005-08-17T16:19:00.000+08:00

quick update

i cant even survive one day without feeling guilty of not studying enuf
i had nightmares and my body didnt let me sleep cos.. the more i sleep the less i study
i think i have been bitten by the study bug
i am turning into a mean old velvety boring person
i hate being boring
i realised that going supermarket shopping can make you muscular
i have made a desicion to blog in perfect english from now on using elaborate vocabulary. ;)
12 days to prelims.. STOP THINKING ITS JUST TO THE ENGLISH ONES
mind over matter matters
watched daredevil (i can hear you say "finally") and a beautiful mind ( thanks to-fill a name here-)
mum told me i didnt HAVE to go 3 months course. ALLHAMDULLILAH.. but hopefulyl i still do well...
realised that i love sad stories that make me cry
discovered that i really really cant study with friends.. or in the school library anymore
discovered ms tee had a "beautiful voice" and she dont wanna "waste" it... MUAHAHAH... i bet the timbre of her voice is not that good.. ^-^
green is a nice colours to irritate TKGians

damn...

2005-08-13T05:18:00.000+08:00

its hard when your parents dont believe u study.. u noe.. the main reason for not doing well in the block ca is cos of the whole month i spent not studying in malaysia... yeah.. wasted my time there sia... i could have"studied" so much.. in act ive been wasting my time for too long now.. since sec 3... oral sucked ah.. to those people whu havent take.... : THE EXAMINERS LOVE TO SNORT AND LAUGH AT YOU!! argh!!

2005-08-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

im on the chopping board.. die =S.. what would i do!!! my laptop might be taken back.. -insert swear word here- -insert different swear word here-

18 freaking days

2005-08-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

18 freaking days.. 18 freeaking days.. to one of the biggest exams... haish.. i really dont want to take it.. i mean whu does... looking at my progress.. dun think i can make it..must JAM everything into these 18 days.. EVERTYHING ...omg! and the thing is i really dont want to go to a jc.. and i dun noe how to tell my mum that.. i seriously dont wanna go jc.. i dunno... the only pull factor there is KI which is very appealing to me.. but ultimately i wanna move to malaysia as soon as possible.. im sick of living in a hostel.. makes me feel lost sumhow... i used to feel lost at home too. but i feel even more lost here.. urgh.. cant stand it... and i think im so gonna flunk a amath.. seriously.. even im getting better at chemistry u noe.. and not a math.. i dunno why.. its just... not... for me.. i should have dropped it last year man.. argh... damn... regret.. oh well.. guess i better start studying again.. been studying for 5 hours straight... emath paper ones.. so lazy wanna take my grpah paper out lah... CYA PPL! HAPPY MUGGING!

2005-08-09T07:12:00.000+08:00

i think its about time i revived my blog ya? hahaha... i foudn out blogging is sumthing u can only do if u got the mood.. which is not the case for the past week.. i just felt no need for me to blog.. except for now... cos i think its getting way too stagnant.. hahaha... but yeah.. my life is boring.. so i cant blog about it... what happened yesterday i felt was also kinda boring.. i mean the concert was too china... like HELLO?! we wanna feel patriotic not just chinese-fied ask the guest perform for us at assembly lah for all i care...imean we only sang like 2 national day songs.. argh! what the!!! oh yeah.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!! whoa.. so fast one year gone by... oh yeah news flash people! i have a new white kitten in malaysia.. and.. my old cat..u noe chica... she gave birth... to 6 KITTTENS!! i feel so happy for her.. i feel like a mum myself.. hahaha^-^ so proud of chica.. so darn proud of her.. hahaha.. after her being horny non stop every few weeks.. ^-^ better go study now.. CIAO! hahaahah... byebye

2005-07-31T18:08:00.000+08:00

war of the worlds... such a great laugh... what a ridiculous(?) movie.. i tell you.. i can make a more pathetic frightened llook than tom cruise ah.. argh.. and he run run run everyone gets zapped and then he never gets zapped.. like what the~ hahah then everything just BARELY MISSES him.. -.-.. oh what the heck.. hahahaha...

anyway... nice pics from yesterday...

slightly injured gingerbread man.. so cute!

sick sick sick

2005-07-25T08:36:00.000+08:00

yes people! im sick today ok.. i checked my timetable b4 skipping ok... im not missing much.. cos if i were id be damn worried.. so anyway.... i got somany pics i need to upload lah... hahaha... telling you of my day at the libary with nad, mal and kid on saturday... the LIBRARY IS HUGE!but most of it are reference books.. hahaha... but its still nice...

behold the garden!! its nice u noe.. like after u study u want a place ot relax... and this wierd flower too

Then we haf.. the inside of the library!! this is the 12-13th floor... big right!?!?! and this is only like one quarter of the library...

View of shophouses from the 12th floor.. the cars looked like toys lah... so interesting

nanyang academy of fine arts i think... it used to be the central fire station... FYI the fireengines could sitll be found but its behind the building

then.. ME AND NAD!!! ahhaaha...

oh yeah.. the following are the harry potter book release pics.....

and there you gooo!! =) better start studying now...

24th july

2005-07-24T19:02:00.000+08:00

july is already ending people.. ONLY TWO MONTHS LEFT.. TWO MONTHS AND WHAT AM I DOING? I AM ON THE WAY TO ACADEMINC SUICIDE-word thanks to ms hamidah- damnnattion!! okok.. nvm nvm then ill just make this a quick blog then go study ok? AS If

i have

suddenly have a fetish for lace...o.o and vintage...
have a leak in my wallet
slacked like got no o levels
spend too much

i just felt like not blogging.. okok bye!

20thjuly

2005-07-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

its amazing how racist people can still get... i got this from...msn news no kidding.. http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/8632199/

"But white children are healthier than black or Hispanic children and black children are much more likely to die violently, be assaulted or suffer some other violent crime."

come on.. tell me they HAD to put that sentence there?? oh yeah.. white babies are healthier..white people are superior.... i now its stats.. but... WHAT THE HELL.. what are they trying to prove? i stronly oppose them... if i was older i would sue!!!

this is... UNACCEPTABLE!!! what the... hahaha... GRrrRrRRrRrRr.....

on another note...i just cant stand it when the people around me meaning those in my class GET SO FRUSTRATED OVER ONE MARK.. and its not like they needed it!!! im serious... its so frustrating for me noe....like this girl lah.. she got highest in class for this particular subject.. she still ask/beg the teacher for marks.. i mean come on.. dont waste our time can!?!?!?! what the... -.-...

on that note.. i need to shower.. i stink.. MUAHAHAHHA

2005-07-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

Never been in love
Cause a girl like me
Never had someone to care for
Never thought there could be
Someone special for me
And now I'm all in love
Cause a girl like me
Waited patiently for someone
Someone to care for me
And there will never be

[CHORUS:]
No more lonely, no more just me
I've been there before
Ain't goin no more
And now that you're here I
Never wanna say goodbye love
Never wanna be without you
No more cryin, no denyin'
I'm in love with you
And now that you're here I
I never wanna say goodbye love

[VERSE 2:]
Now it's time for me
To find out what the first time love could mean
Little scared but its cool
Cause it's worth it
Now I finally fell in love
And I know that it
Gots to be for real (So real)
It's the way that I feel
So come share my world with me
So there will never be

[CHORUS]

[BRIDGE:]
So I'm standin here
Arms open wide
Ready to give my heart
I'm sure this time
Love's gonna last for life
Baby I know things change
And there might be some rain
But the clouds are gonna clear
And the sun is gonna shine again
Shine light on our love baby
So let's make it last forever

hp launch

2005-07-16T09:21:00.000+08:00

hp launch was... okay... the only part that was fun was the dressing up and getting the book! so anyway... i did dress up.. no particular character... hahaha... mal...was abit half hearted aye? hahaha... so.. there are photos but im trying hard to upload them for ppl to see!!!

so we reached at around 11... but borders only moved the queue at 12.30.. only to find out you dont have to queue to participate in the events.. the queue was for the buying of the book.. so we went out of the queue and watched the movie marathon... going around taking pics with "hagrid" and "dumbledore" hahaha.. so cute siah hagrid.... then got parking lot pimp!!!! at 1.30...quite nice sia thier songs...so anyway... then we took alot of pics and then soon got bored then we slept in the queue at around 2.30 then i woke up at 4 due to TREMORS and involuntary muscle contracation.. IT WAS VERY COLD!! im serious... then i realised the others already went out to warm themselves.. hahaha.. then there was this... show which i din watch.. hahah... okok.. then the queue started getting longer and longer.. then in the morning about 30 mins b4 the release... they gave up milo cereals.. ONE BOX EACH! damn... hahaha... then.. i didnt eat.. but rather was too excited... so yah.. alot of people asked where i got the robes and scarves from.. and wanted to take picture... IT FELT WIERD! IT FELTT VERYYY WIERD... hahahaha.... oh yeah.. i inhaled helium too!!! damn high pitched my voice!! and its sooo wierd!! hahaha

so thats it for the entry.. going bakc to reading then sleep... =D

poem

2005-07-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

my eyes are swollen

my nose feels like a tap

my heart is breaking into a million pieces

my legs are in a trap

i try so hard to put it behind

as hard as i can try

but happiness seems so hard to find

sometimes even in my dreams i cry

I used to believe there was a way for everything

dreams were where i belong

but now even my lips could not sing

the once-upon-a-time happy song

why isnt there light i see?

why must i endure this pain alone?

why isnt there a life gaurd on duty?

why must i rot to bones?

I'm on the edge of leap

what is holding me back?

im on the blade's tip

punctured my wrist and then everything else fades to black

2005-07-13T22:39:00.000+08:00

please excuse nazurah she is MAD raging MAD

fuck

bitch

whore

doeant-know-her-place

gosh never swore that much

this is what happened

ms tang: it's not approved(shoving the paper to my face)

me: WHAT?!(i did not scream)

ms tang: i do not see the point of going to your friends house to sleepover

me: but my mum allows me to!

ms tang: but i dont see the point.

me:(think think think) but we are gonna study.. last chance b4 exams....

ms tang: but there is no point.. you can study here -smile-

me: (mannn.. HOW CAN YOU SMILE U EVIL BITCH)but my mum LETS MEEE

ms tang: even with my own daugther i wont..
me: (IM NOT YOUR DAUGHTER) -sighs and shakes head- -que fake tears- please... i need to go.. i cant.. last chance... b4 i move to malaysia...-fake tears spill

ms tang: i see no point -SMILES AND WALKS AWAY-

fugly bu=itch i tell you!!! i would love to see her dieee!! a painful deathhhhh

here i am

2005-07-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

heyhey!!! damn hostel internet ah.. i cant even go online anymore.. its like so damn slow..its a curse... im telling you... ITS A CURSE!! curse you back lah!!!!

so anyway!!! i am goign to that priday harry potter thingy! so fun... can finally use my robe.. ok.. i sound like a nerd now.. BUT NVM!! haahahah!!!

the hostel internet sucks.. hafi told u that???

pop ROCKED... i cried so hard... we made evryone cry!!!!

we must be that very special!! =D

damn i miss him....=(

love...love...love...

2005-07-09T19:44:00.000+08:00

such nice quotes from Absolute boyfriend 5... this is the best installment.. you can feel how much riiko loves night.. damnation.. it put me in a sad mood...

"i'd like to be someone's special girl...i want to be important to someone..."

"i want to find someone who'll find me special and treat me like i am to"

"riiko..i'm never leaving you again...never...letting u go"

so sweet!!!

pop....

2005-07-09T17:55:00.000+08:00

dear squaddies,
the past four years have been nothing but significant in my life. There was ups and downs.. more downs i guess... cos people remember downs more clearly. But whatever it is... bad experiences makes people stronger. I cant forget all the funny funny type moments in the np room where we just kept laffing and laffing non stop.. and how peng when she talk to us is like super nice but she turn her head to the juniors and like... FUYOH..she was so angry. Yes, alot of people will rememeber me as the girl whu stupid2 go ask for water break!!! HAHAHAHA.... gosh... so shameful! i cant believe it has already been one year as an NCO. words cant explain the way i feel...

2005-07-06T22:39:00.000+08:00

aper nie? what is all this? how can someone fall inlove so deeply with another just by exchanging a mere few words??? ook... ITS NOT LOVE.. its not love.. its infatuation... sheer infatuation... yup... better go study physics and a math now... suddenly feel like its just 8... =D its good to be on the computer.. MAN I MISS YOU BABYY!!! i havent got a baby!! oik.. dun think anyhow ah... btw.... my new honeymoon dream place is... MADRID! haha spain! yes.. olympic fever.. DAMNN... raul is so hot in singapore.. DAMN hisoh so sexy hair.. DAMN HIS CUTE FACE... hahahaha... and i just love flamenco.. i shall take spanish and flamenco lesson when i have completed levels... yeah!!!! hahaha.. toodles.... muaks!!

2005-07-02T20:30:00.000+08:00

i wish i was leaving for kl on a jet plane. ok im not tt fussy.. a bus will do....

life throws you surprises

2005-07-02T20:05:00.000+08:00

life throws you surprises, embrace it then throw it away. well, that was random.. =D im in a pretty bad mood now ah... loneliness kills me.. seriously!!!

okok basically i noe finally agree with what chot said that time... i agree that "they" do not try to fix things. they complain about it but they neva do anything. noe, that just pisses me off...why expect me to do that for u... haish u ppl dont noe what i toking about already... so anyway

today was actually fun.. going our with ber fa and qazim to watch initial d. initial d is a must watch film. its fast loud and emotional. i almost cried... okay i did... the last part showed that you cant have everything in life... well.. i kept thinking about him throughout the movie.. okay im finally going public people! im love sick AND homesick... im sick.. in the heart... ok? it SUCKS... it sucks not having a fren to pour all these out to too... and it isnt sumthing anyone would take seriously.. everyone else got thier own problems to settle too...damn~ this sucks.....this sucks... innitial d's ending suck too... i suck... arghhh!!!!!

im serious.. i dunno... im suppose to feel relaxed these days but im not... =(

july 1st again

2005-07-01T13:56:00.000+08:00

ok.. 2nd post of the day... PHYSICS WAS HELL.. im telling you.. did so many careless mistakes... im gonna go study at airport later... i think.. yah.. maybe i should send my sis off... dunno ah... but i think ill go bakc and change 1st... gonna study physics.. hahaha... dun ask why... at least im starting... sunday i'll try to start on bio and on monday...

okok.. seriously ppl.. if u think these long posts are getting out of hand tell me.. haha ILL CHANGE THE LAYOUT.. NOT THE LENGTH OF MY POSTS.. hahhaha but however... if the paragraph of the day is not nice.. tell me k? hhaha.. ill stop and just write for my our pleasureee. muahaha...

oh yeah...took lotsa funny photos just now in class.. =D illegal photography sia!!! ahhaahah....anyway... yah..now im looking at all teh marine science career websites.. and to my surprise actually it has alot.. so my advise to all of u raeding this sentence, GO SEARCH INFO ABOUT YOUR AMBITION...seriously enlightening. whu says i don't noe what i mean when i say i WANT TO BE IN THE MARINE SCIENCE FIELD.

chapter one of the day

2005-07-01T09:05:00.000+08:00

I threw my pencil on the table, frustrated over the mathematical sum that stared blankly back at me. I slumped back into my chair and gave a huge yawn. I grabbed my clock at the corner of my desk. It was already past midnight. I switched off my table lamp and felt my way to my bed. I threw myself face down on the bed and drifted into unpleasant thoughts about the exams tomorrow.

Damn, another boring day in a boring girl’s life, I thought to myself.

Oh God, Save me from this and just throw me a life, I muttered to myself as I dug my head deeper into the mattress.

The room fell silent, only the rustling of the trees just outside the window and the whisper of the wind could be heard.

Suddenly, light filled my room entirely and whirling sounds could be heard. I opened my eyes wide apart in shock. I got up from my bed and stared at the source of bright light just across my room. As the white light subsided, I squinted to make out the figure across my room. My eyes widened in disbelief.

1st july...

2005-07-01T08:39:00.000+08:00

heyhey people!! im back in the school library.. starting to REALLY like this place... hahaha... well.. you noe the word of the day section.. is abit too... common.. so.. =D i've got somthing else!!!! the paragraph of the day! nono.. i havent lost my mind. I was merely just started on the same plot but different starting of this story i wrote like a few months ago.. the 1st version was abit boring.. and too.. URGH... so i decided to make it shorter BUT more quicker... hahaha... the story line... you ppl just have to wait ah.. its CRAP im telling you... but its a fun and creative idea.. got it from reading all those astonomy books at kino that day...

but first ill tell you about my oral EXAMINATION... O LEVEL! and i tell you the examiners were supa nice... super super super nice... they first ask like how are you and stufF!!! super super nice!!!!! im telling you.. it totally relaxed me... altho my reading was... OKAY.. i found it very easy to talk.. altho abit terbelit belit.. but its better than not talking at all.. =D hahaha... then by 6 yesterday.. i was VERY VERY VERY tired.. i was like dragging my lifeless body back to the hostel u noee..... super tired. til i didnt study last night... haahaha i wrote the story instead!!!! so.. my sis is going back to KL today.... hahaha.. i wish it was me instead... hahaha.. btu nvm...20 MORE WEEKS!!! i cant wait for prom.. serious.. can dress up and all.. ^-^ dunno what i'll be wearing... hmmm.. think of o levels and prelims first can naz????

at skool on the 29th

2005-06-29T09:17:00.000+08:00

heyhey!!!! im at school now altho i dun have skool today..ppl having thier pure humans paper. i am.... in the library wanna see how to do the histogram height of rectangle thing on hey math... dunno which chapter it is on.. so anyway!!!

got back to singapore that say and cleaned the whole room.. tooo many insect i tell u!! hahaha.. 20 more weeks b4 im outta here!!! 20 MORE!!! i cant wait.. i seriously cant wait... I CANT WAIT!!! hahaha

tmr is my MT O LEVEL ORAL EXAM... CRAZYY!! hahaha sheer excitement and nervousness... rememebr to talk more and elaborate... COME ON I WAS IN MALAYSAI FOR 3 WEEKS.. hahahah -.- like that would help.. hahaha... so far all teh papers sucked... im so dead... WHY AM I NOT DOWN FOR SUPERVISED STUDY?! okok.. in case u all are suspecting that im braggin.. IM NOT... I WANT TO BE IN SUPERVISED STUDY!! i need to... hahahaha...

hmmmm... so far.... been missing home.. but now sorta got over it lah ha... 20 MORE WEEEKKSSS!! i cant waitt...but thinking back.. the hostels kinda cool place see...

WHOA FUYOH!! this girl beside me playing this indian music... and dance dance by herself sia.. hahaha... crazy.... i tot only stressed up sec 4s to stupid things.. hahaah.. i was wrong... =D

anyway.. i will update one day again yah??? see you guys around.. miss the net alot. miss slack life alot... MISS ITTT!! i miss everything...

okok... today's new segmented blog of segmental proportions!!(im going mad ah.. must b the exams..)

NICE/RANDOM/CUTE/FUNNY word of da day: adoration,affinity, sympathy =D byebye!!